My life the country song ...

As much as I love country songs (NOT) I feel like I am living in one at the moment. I thought that I was getting over Jenn, but alas I am not. This past week as been one stream of memories, reflections of what might have been and general self flagellation. I can't even escape in sleep because she haunts my dreams with ideas of us being back together. My personal mantra during the day is Taylor Swifts song "we are never ever getting back together." But, I'm pretty sure if she came strolling back into my life right now I would probably take her back. If you read my last blog entry you probably noticed that I mentioned how Jenn has broken me. During the month of August I tried (unsuccessfully) to date. Each and every date seemed to be fine from my perspective, but all the women said they felt I was distant or they didn't connect with me. Now I know that not everyone would be a good match and that connections have to go both ways, but I also know that I didn't have this problem with EVERYONE I met before Jenn came along and monkeyed with my emotions. I know that I am a lot less open emotionally now than before Jenn and perhaps that is part of my issue with making new connections ... Well I'll leave it there and ponder life some more.